It’s My Diet and I’ll Cry If I Want To (Week 10)
The Skinny on Sam
One Client's Journey with Nutritious America
Here’s what happened this week: I cried. I cried during my phone nutrition appointment with Abra. Hot, angry at the world, frustrated tears. And over what? Ten pounds. Those bloody last ten pounds. (Bloody is such a good word- we really should steal it from the British.)
In the grand scheme of things, I know it really isn’t such a big deal. I have my family, friends, good health, and I am currently writing on a picnic blanket in the San Diego sun overlooking the Pacific Ocean with Henri. But sometimes it is easy to forget the big picture and instead become distracted by the ‘hate handles’ that prevent your jeans from buttoning or the fact that you can’t work out in your Lululemon shorts because of chub rub- still.
I was on week 10. Week 10 and I’d only lost 5 pounds. Now I had 6 more weeks until my reunion and 10 more pounds to loose to make my initial goal weight.
Now it was true- I hadn’t done everything perfectly. Especially during the past week, where going off an anti anxiety drug had caused me to turn to carbs a few times for comfort. (That carb addiction is strong.) But over the past 10 weeks I had drastically changed my eating habits, cut way down on alcohol consumption, and had exercised nearly every day- sometimes twice a day. I had even started an email group where we all encouraged each other and kept up with everyone’s progress. And still nothing! (Maybe it was time to cut off my left leg and be done with it- that would make me weigh less.) I didn’t feel at all like the superhero in my illustration. I wanted to cross my arms, stomp my feet, and scream, “No fair!” Instead I cried to Abra.
She actually gave me hope when I was feeling quite hopeless. For one, she made me feel better by telling me that lots of people cry. (So I was less pathetic- or at least pathetic with company.) Unfortunately, in today’s society weight loss is given a lot of value and people often judge their self-worth by it. (I need to work on this.) Also, she gave me a solution to start improving my results. This weekend, I am going to start a detoxifying cleanse, which should also help jumpstart weight loss and get me out of this annoying rut. I am really excited. (I just hope it’s not too much like the Juice Cleanse, which I tried to do in New York and didn’t last through one cucumber smoothie- words cannot describe how disgusting it was. Money drained out and the deliveries kept coming and I couldn’t touch the stuff. I kept the food cooling juice carrier bags though- those were pretty cool.)
This week I am also going to try and read the two books by Geneen Roth that I ordered from Amazon. (Writer friends, don’t hate me for not buying from a bookstore- I’m on a budget!) The first one is called “Breaking Free from Emotional Eating.” I heard her talk at the conference and she was so inspiring. After I finish the books I’ll do a post on that and let you know what I learned!
Anyway, wish me luck. And good luck to all of you who are trying to loose weight and live a healthier lifestyle!